Chris came up to me after weight training and was like, "I think I may be going to prom after all." Part of me was like, "Great, I can't ask him now," and the other half was hoping that he was leading up to some sort of way of asking me. Of course, it was the first. He told me he was talking to this girl from school who wanted to go, so he's going to ask her. Funny, because two days earlier he was telling me how he'd never ask someone even if he knew they wanted to go with him.
I was a little upset, and tried to give him an enthusiastic congrats on being able to go but I don't think I was very convincing. Usually when I'm upset about something, the person I'm talking to will know it.
I was talking to Cassie today about prom, and I decided I should at least give Justin a chance. I'm scared to death that he is going to say no, just like he does whenever else I want him to go somewhere with me and my friends. I'm thinking, THIS IS PROM, HE HAS TO SAY YES.. but, he didn't even go to his own prom. And he's been a bit self-centered lately, so I'm scared to death that he'll say no.
How horrible would that be to get rejected by my own boyfriend.
How horrible that I'm afraid of getting rejected by my own boyfriend.
It's not supposed to be like this.